The world is mine

The world is mine

I am always right. no kidding! This world revolves around me, the world is about me, only what I think matters. Because this is my world. You can't say this is not my world as long as I exist in it. Technically this is indeed my world!

Since there is only one world, one life and one me. The world has to be about me. If my world is not about me but about some one else, it would be pathetic. If all you ever want in your life is to be some one else, your pathetic and I'll discriminate.

One life, live it.
My life, my way.
Toothbrush, toothpaste.

Only my own opinions should matter. If my parents think that I will be happy being a doctor, cutting people up, it doesn't make me happy to live up to their expectations. I will only be happy if I enjoy cutting people up in the first place, if I do, be it a doctor or a murder, I will still be happy and have a meaningful life, doing the things I truly want.

Social norms and majority's opinions does not make up right or wrong, or this or that for the matter. What is right or wrong, this or that, to me, is always solely defined by me and me myself and I only, because what I think of anything is truly all that should matters to me.
Everything is what I think of it to be, if I think of you as the most honest person ever, even the very fact that your a lying despicable scum won't make you untrustworthy to me, only when I think you are untrustworthy then you are untrustworthy! Perception is reality!

If you come across a piece of cardboard that you think is absolutely beautiful and a must have for your room decoration, would you think that its ugly because it is in fact just a piece of cardboard? would you think that its ugly simply because everyone else says so, and miss out on it? No! you will still think its beautiful no matter what.
Because beauty is subjective, as well is right and wrong, as well as desire and every single stupid thing.

So do you realize that I am always right already, because what is right or wrong, is solely defined by me, if i say it is right but you say it is wrong, or the fact that it is wrong, does not matter to me at all. So I am always right as long as I think I am right. Even when I think that I am wrong, I already know why I am wrong thats why I think I am wrong, so when I think I am wrong I become right! and so I am still right.
Matter of fact is, this way, you are always right too, However when our opinions conflict whatever I say will be reassurance of my rightness while everything you disagree with me is plain self denial! Yar.

I always do what I want because well, its what I want! Like if I don't do what I want. What would I do? what other people want? It really is not as selfish and self centered as it sounds because what I "want" can be simply for you to have what you "want".
The only case where I don't do what I want or do what I don't want to, is only when by doing this, I get something more desirable than what I did or did not do.
If you love to play with barbie dolls but will get discriminate against by me because you are sissy, should you stop playing barbie dolls? Yes! but only if the relationship you want to have with me is more desirable than your barbie dolls. Which I already assume to be the case. Obviously! Right. Yar.

I believe I should always do what I want at that moment in time, so I can live without regrets, yes I may regret doing somethings later on, but hey at least I enjoyed it when I did it. A life of regrets is the worst kind to live, to me. Some people may believe that one should constrain oneself "now" to live a greater "later", like in the case of religious reasons, to serve a greater purpose "later", and this is meaning in life for them. But I believe the meaning in life is not at the end of the journey for we all die at the end of it, the journey itself, the people I will come across, the experiences I will have is all the meaning I need. I may regret ending up at the wrong place at the end of the road, but hey! at least I can say I had fun reaching there. But when you end up in a place you do expect to be and did not have any fun during the journey there, isn't it the worst possible scenario. But this only applies when constraining oneself is not desirable, like to me and everyone I believe, but if it is desirable to you for whatever weird reasons I do not wish to imagine, everything doesn't apply!



I want only the elusive, intangible,
Then it gets closer and clearer, now reachable.
I should stop cause its not supposed to be,
Yet I could care less.

Is "want" good enough a reason.
When the heart nudges but the mind says no,
The stubborn heart devoid the brain of blood,
Because "want" is good enough.

Its like how my mind sees the flaws and contradictions in christianity yet I still go to church simply because I want to. Its like how my mind mocks the beautiful affair I dream of, yet I still go for it anyways because I want it bad.

Drop the act. Theres nothing as cool as being true!
But the world is unfair, I was born unprivileged! So I want to be someone else.
Get yourself privileged.

Well its good that the world is unfair anyway, if it were all fair everything would be the same. How boring is that, it is all so beautifully unfair. Of course I'm just saying this because I think I got the better part of the deal. Will I still say this if I think I'm getting the lousier part? No. I would convince myself I got the better part and still say yes. HA.

Even if your shit you should be proud of being shit! Simply because thats the best and only thing you can do, Imagine.
Say geek #1, he tries to looks punk by dying his side parted sticky gelled down hair rainbow, he'll look like a retard! and will always be a sad geeky boy who will never be cool.
But geek number 2!
With glasses so thick, his eyes magnified.
With pants pulled so high, his armpit's hair and belt.
Well, They intertwine!
Geek #2 is all about getting good grades and making his parents proud, live to geek, geek to live. And people actually think that he is cool because he is good for stuff like copying homework! And he is a happy geek, proud of his heritage.

One thing I care about which I should really not be bothered by so much is how others perceive me, especially when I do something unconventional, because the friends who I care for their perception of me, will try to justify me by asking me personally. And the toxic gossiper can remain the judgmental dicks they are for all I do not care. I have some pretty weird reputations. So as long I can justify myself to myself, as long as everything is something I can admit to when asked, then there is nothing I wouldn't do if I believe its worth it. Nothing!

I always believed I am everything I ever need to be. I believe I can achieve anything, if I want it bad enough to try hard enough, I have no one I'd rather be. I don't want to be brad pitt or anyone for the matter I just want the things they have, like money, angelina jolie and angelina jolie. When I say money, what I really meant is not the greed for money but rather the freedom from money, more money brings more freedom from monetary constrains which brings freedom to do the things I truly want when my materialistic needs are fulfilled.
And I'm not a "I'm not materialistic" hypocrite.
I am materialistic, superficial and profoundly deep.
How can I be materialistic, superficial and profoundly deep all at the same time?
Because I am wonderful. HA.

I don't even know how to despair anymore, the hopelessness when I brood over not being to achieve or get something I want, the hopelessness that there are things that are forever out of my reach.
After I saw and realize that I am all I ever will be and all I ever need to be. I can hardly stay upset over anything for long anymore, of course when something doesn't go my way I would get upset at first but shortly after I would see that its already happened, so I can either stay upset or accept it and move on. For everything bad that happens only increases the chances of something good happening next!
And because I have that confidence that I could do anything I want with the proper motivation! there is always something to look forward to. Note that it is "anything I want" not "anything". If I want it I can do it, why? you ask. Its like why the sky is blue and the earth is round, its just like that for no particular reason. If I want it I can do it!
There is always light at the end of the rainbow and a pot of gold at the end of the tunnel, the pot of the busker!

In the end everything matters if I feel it matters, and nothing matters if I am not the slightest concerned about it.

So is the greatest fool the self enlightened genius,
and the envied genius the carefree fool.

"how happy is the blameless vestal's lot,
the world forgetting, by the world forgot."



Robbie Williams.
A place to crash,
Enjoy.